(The third of four new reflections from a Dutch women in a São Paulo prison. We call her Fifi. In this reflection, she sends a short note to her son, Mikai who died within a week of his birth. Please think about and pray for the Fifi and her son Mikai. Please also keep the incarcerated women in São Paulo’s prisons in your thoughts and prayers. Fifi has given her permission to share her reflection via this blog post although her name has been changed.)
Everyone goes one day to heaven. Some sooner than the others.
Children are meant to survive their parents. They are not meant to go first. Unfortunately, the Lord sometimes has other plans for the children. They go up the stairs of heaven first; before the parents.
One day they will all be together again when the Lord wants it. When that happens, the parents go up the stairs of heaven and the child is waiting behind the gate.
One day I will have you in my arms again when the Lord wants it. I love you.
(Tiago’s note–This is the sixth in a series of refections by women prisoners in Brazil and the second by Fifi. The women have given their permission for this blog post although their names have been changed. In this reflection, Fifi shares the feeling of loss after losing her one-week old son shortly before coming to prison. Please think about and pray for the author “Fifi” and her angel. Pray for the thousands of women in prisons who also desperately miss their loved ones.)
When you lose a loved one, it is very painful. It is like they take a piece away from your life. For some, its easier to get over than another; everyone is different. The pain will never go away, but you will learn to live with and handle it.
The moment the person you lose is going to heaven, it is better but still very painful for the loved ones left behind. Everybody handles the grieving process differently.
In your mind, you know its better that your loved one has gone to heaven, but in your heart you want something else. Your loved one has no more pain and can be happy in heaven; away from your life they are actually nearer. I know that I will always have the new angel with me and he will watch over me.